five.o'.eight.AM

I do understand; in addition, better than you
I do see; in addition, further than you
I do hear; in addition, sharper than you
I do speak; but it is also the only thing I can’t.

I don’t have the time and space to do so
Unequally, you segregate the spaces
Rushing as always, I lost in the gun fight
; Because time is something I can’t hold
I can only hope time spins back
Not to the beginning, but way before that
Because up ahead I know what happens
I do not want to repair it, but avoid it
I can’t actually, is a memorable memories

I can only flash through and hear
I can’t touch and bear with it
Not that it’s hurting, it’s too sweet
Not that I don’t like sweets, it’s too lovely
Not that I hate love, loves complicated

But love is beautiful,
It shimmers,
Every time you need it too, it will
But sometimes, it hurts you as well
The jealousy and hypocrisy just strikes you
Right in there,
No one can tolerate jealousy, its natural
Even in the slightest feeling of love, there must be some.

Because I know,
And I’ve felt it before
But it was okay for me to feel so
If I didn’t, I must be an alien
Because until now...

I’ve lost words there.

Countless times I’ve wondered here
Waiting for the postman
Thinking what letter it is
Death, or holidays
Long breaths or long highways
Because if I choose long breaths,
I will write songs and stone; falling down to earth
If I choose long highways,
I will hallucinate and dream all day
; Either way, I’ll fall down.

So I choose none but tall glass with liquids that’ll
Keep me warm.

I’m a dead dead cold person
I’ll need warmth to restart life cycle back.

I won’t throw away the old engine oil,
I’ll keep it; perhaps, its still usable.

I made music with heart, I cried that night
The sounds was moving, I was stoned
Not with marijuana but by the music I played
I felt as if I was in spaces of the unknown world
I was floating
Trying not to drown, because a close one use to say,
"Letting it eat you up just make things worst"
I followed, and I obeyed
It worked only for a few days
Since then, life was never moving anymore.