I saw my self in a black and white death

I thought fire was nice
I thought pain was good
I thought being emotionless was decent
I thought losing my own desires was great

I put my self at risk
Like on the edge of Everest, wait
To fall slowly, cold and dead
I am yours to regret.

I felt the sharp words trenchant
Layers of the heart
The hard look hits on my face
And there, I fail to feel anything

A dog is always a dog
Doing what it does best, follow
Every step is another step to heart burn
Every words promised, is another deceit
As always I only follow and obey.

A boat sails to the northern
Leave what’s broken behind
Why are you still here?
Listening to Rumahbogel gives me the
Idea
I should keep my thoughts to my self
And no one could take it away.

I’ll take what ever there is
Wear it everyday till the body dies
Drink it till the venom is neutral to me
I am a hollow after all
What’s there to feel?
I was left dead, to rot
Why the fuck am I still here and alive?

satan was a good guy.

Satan, kill that light crossing my mind
I’m seeing lasers, flashes and blur pictures of
Confusion
Sing to me a song, write me a death note
I want to hear you scream like how you used to
When you’re mad at me.

Please struck my mind with spears of common
Feeling of yours
So I can kill myself when you’re gone.
Take me to the black hole and show me the
Meaning of loneliness when no one’s around
To help.

Your sighs brings doom to my world,
A weapon you will use against me,
To take control of everything.
Dance to this heart beat you’ve mixed up,
Stomp it hard.

You’d always keep my thoughts in a pause
Like how you’d know I would when I can’t do or feel anything
when you indirectly force me to shout out my thoughts
to you so I could be the reason to why you’re angry
and in the end, I am the poison,
I am the knife that kills you every night.

I am the dead light.