I saw my self in a black and white death

I thought fire was nice
I thought pain was good
I thought being emotionless was decent
I thought losing my own desires was great

I put my self at risk
Like on the edge of Everest, wait
To fall slowly, cold and dead
I am yours to regret.

I felt the sharp words trenchant
Layers of the heart
The hard look hits on my face
And there, I fail to feel anything

A dog is always a dog
Doing what it does best, follow
Every step is another step to heart burn
Every words promised, is another deceit
As always I only follow and obey.

A boat sails to the northern
Leave what’s broken behind
Why are you still here?
Listening to Rumahbogel gives me the
Idea
I should keep my thoughts to my self
And no one could take it away.

I’ll take what ever there is
Wear it everyday till the body dies
Drink it till the venom is neutral to me
I am a hollow after all
What’s there to feel?
I was left dead, to rot
Why the fuck am I still here and alive?