Ephemeral Imaginations.

I went up to the hills,
City lights were bright,
It’s a place where I enjoy the
Mosquito bites and picture
; Ephemeral imaginations.

Bright lights, city lights,
You are blocked by tall buildings,
But still I look for a spot where I can
; sit down and think about many things

The night clouds are beautiful; too bad
You’re not here,
I almost took you to my hideout,
Unfortunately,
Mans are building sky scrapers.
They fucking intrude my place.
But it’s okay,
I’m moving to a new place.

Far away, I’ll distract myself from
; uttered words of...
I wasn’t on any of your echelon,
I couldn’t reach to that point,
I know...I was too deeply smitten.
Since I’m going away,
Last wishes are written already.

I wish for nothing but the only the best,
I wish for nothing but for the better,
I wish for nothing but to change,
I wish for nothing but...only to see smiles,
I wish for something I know, deep inside,
It’s like playing music without the instruments,
It won’t fucking work.

I will,
Miss the moments,
Miss the laughter’s,
Miss the smiles,
Miss the Milo,
Miss the hangouts,
Miss the gigs,
Miss the people,
Miss the hills,
Miss the rooftop,
Miss the overnights,
Miss you, him, he, she, her, they and...
THEM.

They are the rainbows in my skies,
They are the rain in the middle of the desert,
They are my mum when I’m losing control,
They are the therapist,
The are the music I enjoy listening,
They are the sad movies I cried too,
They are some bunch of lunatics who would make faces
In the middle of the crowd,
They are my hangout buddies,
They are the ones, who would give me a slap if needed to,
They tell me straight if I’m wrong,
They care for me and won’t let me sink, but sing,
They are the ones, who thought me how to drink Milo.
They are precious and irreplaceable.

They also,
Gave me choices,
Gave me back my feelings,
Gave me the bright sky,
Gave me songs,
Gave me pictures,
Gave me drinks,
Gave me a whole lot of respect,
Gave me too many that I can't pay back,
Gave me a piece of what they think,
Gave me hugs,
Gave me the best time of my life,
Gave me some sense,
Gave me trust,
THEY GAVE ME HAPPINESS.

I am,
Sad,
Scared,
Losing grip,
Lost in words of my own,
Apprehensive,
Confuse,
I am in a troubled state of mind.

I have no idea how to show them how
Grateful I am, having them as my friends,
I wish all this would be a dream,
I really don’t need this kind of thing right now,
I feel...wretched as I write more.

To these precious, fantastic, joyful, tearful, roller-coaster riding-friends,
I owe you people some thanking. You guys have brought back my colour pencils to colour my skies again.


For now, I can only hallucinate and dream.